Two days before Christmas, I have a Dr appt. He will not be seeing me because I do not feel like sitting in a crowded waiting room. Every time I go to see him I have an attitude and my blood pressure is up because of the waiting. I just don't feel like it and as a lupus patient I can say that. 

I have my pernil marinating in the fridge and my stuffing is done, since I am not goin  to the Dr my dinner will be done the day before and if I feel like going out for a little while I can or I can just stay home on Christmas and relax. I have to see how I'm going to feel about that.

I don't really expect any gifts at all, Christmas is basically for the children. It would be nice tho. I don't know why but it seems as if the spirit of the holiday has left me. I don't know if it's because so many ppl have died and gone on or because I'm just not in the mood. I smile and enjoy the ppl around me but they really don't know how I feel. Instead of doing what I always do maybe I will spend this Christmas with people I can trust  Me Myself and I.

I'm going to do my Mac and cheese tonight because my pernil will have  to cook for almost 6 hours tomorrow.

For all those who read my blog, happy holidays to you and your family and many blessings for a wonderful new year!!