Me, Myself and Gizmo

Hello everyone, I'm back. The last time I was here I was seriously upset. I try not to let certain things or people get to me but when it's your best friend of all your life and your significant other that you have been with for 12 years getting on your last nerve by lying to you some things are just hard to forgive. My best friend told me that we were going to the movies lastnight, well she called and stated that the movie was sold out and that she would call me after she got off from work. I had no reason not to believe her so I remained dressed and even did my own nails. Time passed and I realized that she wasn't going to call me. So I sent her a nice little text and left it at that but of course since she has known me all my life she knows that I'm not messing with her for awhile. 

As for my significant other...she,(yes I said it) is a whole other story. Lying to me for no reason over something that didn't make any sense...not only did you lie to me, you expect to get away with it. Anyone who knows me, knows that you get away with nothing when you do me wrong. Trust? There is none when you lie, a relationship? It just dissolved when you lied. Trust and believe I am going to give her a few choice words and she can stay or bounce makes me no difference; I was born by myself and I'm going to die by myself.

While I am typing this I am in serious pain, the day hasn't even begun yet, it's just now noon and I have only been up for 3 hours. Tramadol will have to be taken along with the rest of my medication and I hate taking that, it knocks me out and when I wake up I don't know if it's the same day, the next day or yesterday lol. 

If I do have to have this surgery, this blog will be my outlet...lupus is a funny thing...ppl don't understand it so they run away or become misinformed. Support from friends and family members is hard to keep by your side. They have to be willing and dedicated to you, sometimes that is alot to ask if a human being. I have been on the other side as well and it is stressful.

I do believe I have rambled on enough, thank you for reading and you can leave a comment if you like,I know there are some others out there with lupus just like me.

~have a wonderful day~

P.S. I forgot to mention Gizmo my cat!! He is the only cat person I can rely on, he stays by my side when I'm not feeling well and seems to understand me very well. God created animals so wise. Gizmo saved my life once but I will blog about that another time.

~peace~

Lupus and Me....

This is my first blog on this site and for me it's going to be like a diary I guess. I am having a hard time wrapping my brain around what the Dr told me on Tuesday. It was bad enough that I had to wait 3 hours to see him but for him to tell me that the x-rays showed Aseptic Necrosis and refer me to the Orthopedic clinic and physical therapy is a whole new thing to me. Hip Replacement Surgery, me???? I'm too young for this bullshit!!! I'm only 49 and never thought I would have Lupus in the first place and have to see a specialist about a hip replacement in the second place.

 

This is the time that I miss my parents the most. Going under the knife for me isn't an easy thing. I had to call everyone on the "crew" list to let them know what is any to take place at the end of the year. I'm going on vacation first to celebrate my family reunion in Georgia. I am truly trying to get all my fun in before I make a decision. I'm hoping there is something else they can do besides surgery.

My platelets are up @ 149 white blood cells are up (last time they were low) so I had good labs on this visit, it just bugs me that he won't take me off the prednisone and that is what is causing all this trouble.

I will blog again in a few days or even tomorrow, sleepy now...

Goodnight blogspot <3